It's been a while my friend since you left us, but, I believe I am stuck up in an endless ocean hoping against the hope that it's just a bad dream which will get over soon & i will hear your voice again. It feels very empty without you & that last conversation with you, it will always haunt me. I could never imagine in my wildest dreams that , that good-bye on that night would be the final good bye from your end. Life at times gives you surprises in the most cruel way.
3 days it's been since your departure, but, not a single moment has passed in these three days where i have not missed you. I feel frozen & it feels way too much horrible this way.You were a precious friend & always a great listener even if I was blabbering shit at-times when i was drunk.
You introduced me to lot of good things in life & to an extent when i was going through my worst phase in life you were there for me for which i shall always be indebted you. Every-time I try to take one step forward, it has been pulling me 2 steps backwards in the last few days.
13 years of friendship & never in these years i felt as if i was talking to a different guy. On most occasions it felt as if i was talking to the mirror me. I will always cherish those drinking sessions at that VT hotel where you used to take me up, the moment i landed in Bombay. That shanty place was a witness to lot of memories which i have with you.Lot of dreams & aspirations were created in our utopian worldly talks. I will miss all those talks. There was no one else with whom i was this open.
That Pune trip with you shall always be something which i will cherish till the end of my life. During those struggle days the old monk consumed with you must have made Mohan Meakins a little richer. It is said if a friend stays with you in your struggle phases he is bound to stay with you forever You were truly one such friend for me. You were the friend who has seen the worst as well as the best phases of my life & I will always miss those motivational talks when i had failed in my last semester thanks to a stupid break up & when i was crying like a baby. Till 2017 you used to take my case for that incident & I will miss it terribly giving my case to you.
I thought I was strong on the emotional front, but, your death simply broke me down into thousand pieces & i haven't cried so much in a very long time. I hope wherever you are, you just find some peace. i will see you soon my brother. You have left me in a very bad state. Every-time, I talk about you, I just can't control my emotions. I never expected you to leave so soon. it was a wonderful journey of 13 years with you & you will always be alive in my heart till the time I am alive. The music & the videos created by you shall always be there in my memories forever. You were the best friend I ever had. Rest in Peace my friend, my brother!!!